Hi! This is my first mobile post. On the way to Gesalen. An interesting symbolic transaction just occurred.

I arrived at the bus stop at Golden Gate Bridge and found $6 on the sidewalk. No one else was on the sidewalk. The closest person was a passed-out homeless man in the grass near the stop. I walked over and laid the bills next to him and he didn’t stir at all. I imagined him waking up to a nice surprise.

As I walked back from the grass to the bus stop, I saw an elderly Asian gentleman getting cans out of the trash bins. I looked back and forth between the men several times, like watching a tennis match.

I walked over, took the bills back, the passed-out guy still not stirring a bit, and said to the cans guy, "I found this and would like to give it to you." He chuckled just a bit and accepted it graciously.

This is a tricky distinction. As someone who had serious mental and emotional challenges for a very long time, I know I wouldn’t have made it without folks lending me a hand, even when I bit those hands. I know I at times was listless, grumpy, cloudy, foggy, and ungrateful.

I also know that as an Enneagram One, I tend to see work an effort as good and not producing as bad. I didn’t want to fall into that and I did consider that I didn’t want to create the energy of punishing the laying-down guy.

Part of what I enjoy doing is choosing a different charity to donate to each month. There are so many people doing really great, innovative work that helps the world. It’s tough to choose between them sometimes, but it relieves some pressure knowing I can give to the runner-up the following month.

Looking at social support and trying to catch up with the political shenanigans, I do want to dig in deeper and get clearer on my 2012 stance on what I want to support. It’s interesting to see the Ron Paul campaign have some of the flavor that Democrats used to at least seem to. And I’m embarrassed at how my impressions have nothing but he said she said backing at this point. Gotta start somewhere, tho.

It’s a big puzzle to wrap my mind around. Contemplating it the other night, my mind careened to pointless and hopeless shockingly quickly.

Ok I just took a long break from this while meeting up with FriendHusband. We bought tennis rackets for his house and played together! And it was good! Yahoo!

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